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Feel punished for honesty and that my life is ruined
Jul 21st, 2019 at 2:38pm
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I worked really really hard for many years to achieve my dream of becoming a cop. I busted my ass in college to get a bachelors degree in CJ. I lost a bunch of weight and got in really good shape. I gained experience and training in a related field. Got to a point where I was the #1 applicant for a PD. Got the conditional offer. Then I took the polygraph. The examiner and everyone else told me to be completely honest. During the examination they asked the question about sexual acts. It made me think back to when i was 11 years old. I donít know why I did it, but on a whim, I licked my dogs penis. Just one time and I never did it again. I started stressing out during the polygraph and decided to come clean. I thought I would be ok since they stressed honesty and told me several stories of people who came back from checkered past such as prostitution. Instead, they immediately discontinued me as an applicant and refuse to discuss the matter with me. Iíve put in for 2 agencies since then and they both discontinued me shortly after beginning my background.

Iím crushed. This was 2 years ago now, and Iíve been i living in hell since. I learned that if you did something, but nobody knows about it, to never admit to it because the polygraph examiner has no way to know. Iíve heard so many stories later of active police officers who blatantly lied about drug use and prior criminal history, got hired, and continue to work as police officers. I was stupid and gullible and let the stress of the test get to me. Now I feel like Iím blacklisted from achieving my dream. I feel like Iím being punished for being honest. Many of my friends have become cops and they donít understand how I havenít been able to.

Iíve tried looking at other careers to pursue but I feel like all them would be affected by mail polygraph debacle. I thought about law school but Iím afraid i canít pass the character and fitness check. I thought about firefighting but from what Iíve seen, they have you list police and fire agencies youíve applied to. Iíve occasionally contemplated suicide over all of this. I canít tell anybody either.
  
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Re: Feel punished for honesty and that my life is ruined
Reply #1 - Jul 23rd, 2019 at 8:22am
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The lack of responses to your post does not mean that no one is reading it or that no one cares. It just means that there is nothing useful that we can add.

From reading all the similar posts here, you know that you are not alone, and that you are the victim of an institutionalized abuse.

From reading the linked source materials and many of the answers here, you know that it is almost impossible to recover from the damage to your reputation.

One thing you should know is that licking you dog's penis was not a wrong thing to do. It is certainly very embarrassing to relate, but it was not sinful, evil, harmful, or stupid. It was simply the result of the normal and healthy insatiable curiosity of a child.

You didn't lose your career because you once licked a dog's penis. You didn't even really lose it because your potential employers found out about it. You lost your career because you described yourself in one way on your application and in another way to your interrogator.

It is the difference that does people in. It is taken as an indicator that, under stress, you might not be able to hold in a secret.
  
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Reply #2 - Aug 21st, 2019 at 2:51am
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Thank you for the reply. As far as the damage to my reputation, can you please elaborate? Iím I just fucked for any future government job, or just law enforcement? Can I get into something like being an EMT or Firefighter? What about the military?
  
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Re: Feel punished for honesty and that my life is ruined
Reply #3 - Aug 24th, 2019 at 6:33pm
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PolySucks,

Thank you for sharing your polygraph experience. As you've learned the hard way, it is never in any job applicant's interest to admit to any derogatory information that is not a matter of public record.

If you wish to pursue a career in law enforcement, you might consider moving to one of the five states where state and local governments are prohibited by law from subjecting employees or applicants for employment to polygraph screening. These five states are: Massachusetts, Michigan, Minnesota, New Jersey, and Oregon.

I don't see any reason why you shouldn't go to law school if you're genuinely interested and have the means to attend. It could open the door to higher salaried and societally meaningful employment.

If you'd like to talk, please don't hesitate to contact me directly.
  

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Reply #4 - Sep 13th, 2019 at 6:28am
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Similar thing happened to one of my friends is a military veteran he failed the background for telling the truth and then kept on getting disqualified for other agency's because they ask to put down previous agency's you have applied for. my advice to you is apply for federal law enforcement officer he works a federal law enforcement agency and they don't care where you have applied before they only care where have you worked before. one good federal agency that does not require poly and is law enforcement with 20 year retirement is the federal prison/bop.
  
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Reply #5 - Sep 13th, 2019 at 6:35am
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he also used his GI bill to pay for a police academy, graduated and passed the state certification just never got hired from a local pd. He is now happy he got disqualified form local pd being with the feds has way better benefits and pay. and can transfer to all parts in united states including Puerto rico  and Hawaii.
  
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