Quote:At the time I was unable to tell anyone because I thought they would think I had lied to the polygrapher or else I would have passed the test.
That is quite understandable as the public at large and the media still cling to the myth of polygraph accuracy despite a report by the nation's top scientists to the contrary. It has become part of the "pop" culture.
Quote:Now I can't tell anyone because I am ashamed at how young and stupid I was to believe them and how I let them bully me into crying like that.
That happens to a lot of people. My foreign national wife (then my cohabitant girl friend) took the test at CIA on my behalf in 1995. I was in grad school in Hawaii and a sub-agency, the FBIS (Foreign Broadcast Information Service), have flown me out to Virginia a few months before for screening. They insisted SHE be tested since she was a FN and living with me.
I got a long distance call from her halfway through her polygraph interrogation crying her eyes out. They had flustered her pretty good. Incidently, she was a 21 year old student from Singapore, and probably as naive and innocent as you. She'd never even had a glass of beer! I told her to immediately terminate the test as it was not worth it. I could kick myself in the ass to this day for putting her through that!
Also, in 2000, I came out to the lounge for a break during my NSA poly at the Friendship Annex. A black girl also applying for a chinese language position was on the couch balling like a baby. One of the PR reps was trying to calm her down. I had gotten to know her a little. Just graduated from Wake Forrest, first person in her family ever to go to college...etc. I don't know if she ever got hired.
But like I said, it is all part of their strategy. Make the girl applicants cry, and make the guy applicants lash out in anger. So DO NOT FEEL BAD! Just warn people about this con.
Quote:Also, I just don't know how to communicate how awful those hours were. If anyone told me that they had a polygraph and the polygrapher said they were a liar, I'd think so what? Why didn't you just get up and leave? Why did you think this would be like a normal job interview?
They haven't walked in your shoes. This is why you need to share your experience with the people who really know you. That is how myths are dispelled.
Quote:I have an impressive academic background, a degree from a famous university, and a membership in a high-IQ society.
So why work for the government? There is a whole world out there! My wife and I are going to the Olympics in Beijing, FREE OF CHARGE, because of our language skills and foreign contacts. I am no longer worried about what foreigners I met and do business with. Although I am prohibited for life from talking about my work as former military linguist. But I will never need, nor ever want a security clearance from a government agency or contractor. It's like having taken a huge, colon stretching "dump" (naval terminology).
If I worked for the NSA, I'd have to answer to some "14 week wonder" polygrapher every five years during periodic security updates!
In what area is your expertise?
TC