I will try be very faithful and accurate as to the facts and emotions in the best interest of TRUTH, Justice and hopefully our National Security… Please read it carefully… Thank you!... Let me start by confessing that I am probably one of those in the mainstream who, only 2 weeks ago, had dismissed good sites like antipolygraph.org as just a bunch of “conspiracy theory” looney kazoony fanatics spewing “unsupportable” false accusations about our “well meaning” Government. Let me also assert that I am a proud naturalized U.S. Citizen… VERY PROUD to be an American!... VERY patriotic and I LOVE this country very much!... I am an Arab American leading a very simple, low key, life... but, God bless America, a good and fulfilling life… I applied for a Contract Linguist with the FBI almost a year ago because I wanted to do the “RIGHT thing for my country”…. I do not need the money… The “lame” and mediocre $39 hourly rate with “NO benefits”, "NO PENSION" and most likely NO 'loyalty" nor "Thank You's" at the end... was definitely NO motivation… but I know that the FBI (and almost every other Agency) had a severe shortage of “good” Arabic Linguists leaving our country with an enormous backlog of non-translated tapes and documents that may seriously be compromising our National Security!... I am uniquely qualified because I combine excellent command of the English language with highly advanced comprehension of Arabic in most of its dialects… in addition to my highly critical and analytical mind and other valuable skills... The folks at the FBI were just awesome… very pleasant… family-type folks… and all together “good people”… During my written and oral exams and national security interview, they made me feel part of the “family”… I successfully passed ALL the language tests, the national security interview and submitted extensive paperwork… I just had one last “simple” step… The Polygraph examination… I was a little nervous, because “examinations” always cause me natural anxiety, but I was highly confident that I will pass the Polygraph test and start helping out the FBI… Never in my life have I been in contact with ANY foreign intelligence service nor would I EVER do ANYTHING to harm the U.S. The Polygraph test was anything but simple… The Polygrapher, while “preparing” me, read the various questions... and one of them was “have you ever lied to someone who loved and trusted you”… Not being Mother Theresa, and thinking of times when I had to “tell a lie here and there to my little child to avoid a tantrum” or tell other lies “some spouses tell their spouses”… I honestly responded “well, you know, everybody lies sometimes”… He IMMEDIATELY, with piercing eyes, instructed me “No… not everybody lies... the answer is No… you do not lie to someone who loves and trusts you”… Something IMMEDIATELY felt very uncomfortable and wrong... I did not know what it was at the time.... but it felt ALL wrong... At the time, I did not know what a “control question” or “manipulation” were… I “trusted” that I am in “good hands” among “family” and all I wanted to do was to be cooperative, follow instructions and honestly respond to questions… Well.. the way he “instructed me” offended my sensitivity and insulted my intelligence… YES, as childish as that may sound, “he hurt my feelings”… I am a very sensitive man… a follower of positive energy and do not react well to deception and negative energy… He left a bitter taste in my mouth because, after analyzing this for over a week now, he violated the delicate trust I placed in the FBI personnel… What was supposed to be a simple test became an emotional roller coaster…. The relevant question was longer (and had words that I am not accustomed to hearing every day) than all the other “short” irrelevant or control questions…. and, subconsciously, I felt or perhaps imagined that his tone of voice was intimidating and borderline accusatory even though on a conscious level I did not hear him change his tone…so the moment he “started” to ask the “relevant” national security question, I IMMEDIATELY was aroused JUST from listening to the "long question"… then quickly felt intimidated by the question… then my emotional cascade heightened and subconsciously I was upset or better frustrated because my patriotism was in question… During the 20-30 seconds of silence… Oh God!… I was “subconsciously” so filled with uncontrollable anxiety of fear that “I may screw up on the test”… I know it was NOT Othello’s effect as I was not afraid of being accused of lying… It was just uncontrollable and “unexplainable” anxiety… After doing the test a few times, the ULTIMATE slap in the face came in his words when he unhooked me from the machine… sat me down and with piecing eyes and intimidating ACCUSATORY tone said: “Listen, I have NO doubt in my mind that you have been in contact with foreign intelligence service… you are known all over the world and traveled to many countries, etc… etc... ” What do you say to such bogus and UNEXPECTED accusation? I was shocked, fearful but somewhat summoned the strength to calmly tell him “I have never in my life been in contact with any intelligence service… I am a simple man... leading a simple life"… I swore to him in the name of God, in the name of Jesus and in the name of my own little child… This got repeated for a couple of minutes... where I was TRAUMATIZED and reduced from “a highly intelligent, “good American”, patriotic, well-meaning helpful Arab American wanting to do the RIGHT thing” to “Carlos the terrorist”… Finally, he backed off and said “you seem like a nice guy”… and started to explain to me what may follow, possible retest, etc… and wishing me well with my child… shaking hands with me… etc.. Well, now I have NO doubt in MY mind that the Polygraph is nothing but FLAWED and UNRELIABLE science "CUM Lousy"... and, while it MAY have some very narrow scope "investigative" value, it should NOT be used by the FBI or anyone else as a RELIABLE measure of deception nor Truth for that matter… Also, now I have NO doubt in my mind that HONEST, DECENT, PATRIOTIC Americans by the thousands are failing Polygraph tests right and left and UNNECESSARILY being disenfranchised, traumatized and FALSELY accused of lying. This is SHAMELESSLY and NEGLIGENTLY depriving our country of valuable human resources while allowing “hardened spies” to infiltrate our most sensitive agencies. It does NOT take rocket science for the bad guys who are most likely very well trained to “lie” and deceive… to “exaggerate” their emotional responses to the “easily” identifiable control questions… thereby camouflaging the emotional response to the relevant questions… and easily passing the Polygraph Test with Gold Stars! Well, here I am adding my voice to yours… here I am … just another example of the ENORMOUS harm that Polygraph is causing our nation…
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