Hello Everybody... How y'all doing?
An important development following my original post at
http://antipolygraph.org/cgi-bin/forums/YaBB.pl?board=share;action=display;num=1...;
It's been a few days since I posted... but in my good faith effort to faithfully share my experience accurately, the good folks at the FBI called and informed me that I did
NOT fail my Polygraph test as I presupposed when I first made my original post... and courteously offered me a 2nd Polygraph test.
The new polygrapher sounded like a super nice guy (actually the first polygrapher equally sounded nice until he snapped at me during the examination)...
We both made references to the information found on polygraphs throughout the internet and I basically "dumped" on him all my bottled up feelings in the last few weeks explaining to him how, after it took me over 4 years to get off my butt and "Do the Right thing for my country", I received a huge slap in the face and made to feel like a criminal when I was telling the TRUTH... I also continued by saying something like "no one who is telling the truth should have to be afraid" as
Johnn the Great so
masterfully put it... and that "the polygraph is nothing short of junk science" (to which he totally disagreed and offered to show me proof to the contrary)...
I explained to him that I am a highly sensitive man and that I am petrified of embarrassing myself again in a 2nd exam (I actually am so embarrassed that I did not tell anyone except one of my very close family members about the first exam)...
The fact remains that, to date, I still cannot figure out why I had such severe emotional and physiological reaction to the control question and have no reason to believe that this time will be any different for me....
I am going to present another “psychological theory”… I am NOT a psychology expert and this is NOT a scientific theory… It may be TOTALLY wrong!… so, I do NOT want to be judged… made fun of, nor will I tolerate ad hominem attacks….
Unless someone has the intellectual competence and the “
good heart” to understand carefully the delicate nuance of this theory and my entire post, please remain quiet and go start your own post!…
When I lived in the in the 3rd world, I, like MANY OTHERS, was always petrified when someone of authority had ANY question even if I or my family did NOTHING wrong and have absolutely NOTHING to do with the topic of the question… Of course, there were no polygraphs but in regular conversations, if someone of authority asked me if I knew anything about someone who did something bad… and even if I knew nothing about that person, I immediately “looked” guilty… and I became a nervous wreck hoping that he will not get me or my family involved just because… This may be very hard to understand for most of you good folks who did
not experience the 3rd world… but please.. at least try!...
The closest thing to an “American” experience is when any of you hears the alarm system go off next door … As a “good Samaritan”, you call 911 and, “without wanting to get involved” you just want to let the cops know that the “alarm next door” went off… To that , the cop responds “OK, thank you… what’s your name?”… and you say “listen…I do not want to get involved... I just wanted to be helpful”… and then he, having your phone record from 911, would respond “OK… you are so and so...and you live on so and so, right?”… It is HIS right to ask that!... but if you were like me, you would feel very nervous, OFFENDED (do not ask me why nor knock me down), and hope that the cop doesn’t think you have anything to do with the alarm being set off and investigate you… and pray that they do not involve you…. This is ALL irrational… but that’s how I ACTUALLY would feel!...
Although unrelated, I felt the same way AS SOON as the relevant question was asked!...
My point is that even if I get a slightest hint of negative energy (and I am VERY smart and sensitive to detect it) for being questioned about something bad, I get IRRATIONALLY petrified… I am my worst enemy in that sense!... It does NOT mean that I am not telling the TRUTH!...
So for me, if the polygraph examination will be conducted in a manner similar to the first test (I am not sure how it could be different), I see no reason why I should be “calm and collected” when he asks the relevant question
All in all, he was an awesome listener and a ”best friend” material... and he said that "now that you vented... you should really feel better"... and continued by saying that I have a choice to take the Polygraph exam again.... and he really sounded sincerely concerned… He didn’t for a minute make me feel that he had ANY suspicion that I am a criminal… so I felt very good at the end of the conversation even though my whole body was shaking from the memory of the first experience and the possibility of a repeat experience…
I asked if I can get back to him and he sincerely obliged… even courteously offering me his own cell phone number to reach him any time...
On the one hand, I am COMFORTED that I will be in good hands with him but, on the other hand, I am petrified that I will go and just embarrass myself a 2nd time… I know this time I will NOT be “happy go lucky” as I was the first time on my way to the polygraph test…
Also, I am not sure how to deal with my bitterness and utter disappointment towards the polygraph!... I know that he meant well when he said that he will show me proof that the polygraph is not
junk science..... I
MUST keep an open mind and I
definitely WILL… but I am very highly intelligent… and the simplest proof of all that the polygraph does
NOT give the FBI the TRUTH all the time is that I got FALSE positive even though I
KNOW beyond
ANY doubt that
was telling the Truth!....
I have read through MANY of the “yo buddy… go get the 2nd test since it is offered”… “no, be careful, don’t go as the FBI is just playing a game so they can look fair”… I do
NOT need such unsupported and inflammatory advice... I can read it elsewhere on this good board!... I sincerely need valid “cause-effect”, root cause, and well thought out, accurate and critical analysis that is conducive to my post and helpful to me in making my critical decision.
Again this is
NOT an invitation for the drunk dogs of society to come howling and babbling senselessly... nor is it a license for
anyone to knock down the USA and its fine agencies
INCLUDING the FBI!...
By the way, I sincerely bow my hat to
Johnn and
Polyfool who astutely indicated that my test
would be INCONCLUSVE…. Love you friends!...
So, I thank and invite Johnn, EOSJupiter, George, polyfool detector1012000, Sargeant1107, Twoblock and even quickfix (but no unnecessary barbs, please)… and everyone else like them to come forward with accurate, verifiable and well thought out analysis, comments and advice….
Thank you all!...