All- I hesitate to post here, but have a serious question someone might be able to help me with: I have a third (!)polygraph with the NSA soon, and it is the lifestyle questions I am getting dinged on. Specifically about drug use. I am 35 and used drugs extensively as an undergraduate, some 13 years ago when I never imagined doing this sort of work. It is a period of my life I pretty much block out and do not think about, ever, except recently, given this process. I can only pinpoint the date I never used another illegal drug again, given an emergency room trip and a few days' stay for it. But, during the 'pre-interview' the polygrapher asks such specific questions that I really am not quite able to answer, i.e. how many times did you use this drug or that? I can give what is a reasonable estimate, but in my heart, cannot be certain of that. Which I get dinged on. I would rather just say on so-and-so date on year X, (over 13 years ago!) I never used illegal drugs again. And then I would be ok with the question, and know I am answering it honestly. Other than that I could do a statistical analysis of the time frame to come up with (VERY) broad parameters. Is this ok to say to the polygrapher? (And I had one who asked me very odd questions last time, i.e. I have a sister-in-law who is a Chinese national, and he actually asked me if I ever was going to see her again. DUH. Yes, since she is my sister-in-law! Which made me wonder about the whole process...) But also in my answers I also don't want to appear as a smart-ass academic and alienate my polygrapher. And I am despairing of this entire process, because each time I go in, I start thinking of more and more things I have ever done. Nothing extreme, but, it is hard for me to not think of everything I have ever did that in someway is not ethical. Which, as a Catholic, encompasses a wide range of things that I can fit into those lifestyle questions, no matter how remotely related. It is just the way I think about things. I am beginning to think this is just not for me, that I am the type of person, no matter how truthful I am, cannot pass. And should just be a happy professor somewhere and not work for the government. HELP. Any advice would be most appreciated.
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