I'm not as angry today, considering the fact that just last week I lost my job after failing my third Lifestyle Polygraph...
Do you know how that feels? Well, as you can imagine, not good at all. If the polygraph machine can detect the feeling of deception today is a great day for the machine to notice the difference!
1st polygraph When it was time for me to take the first one, I went in there confident, knowing that I did not have anything to hide. I was as honest as I could have been and said everything that was on my mind, thinking that they were looking for honest people and that was all I needed to do: Say the Truth. I left thinking "I am so glad that was over", but little did I know... About two months later I got the news: You have to retest.
2nd polygraph The second time I went in there thinking "They just want to make sure I did not lie", so I follow the steps of the first thinking and reasuring myself after every question "No, I haven't falsified any documents. No, I'm not hiding any information about drug use. No, I don't have any connections of any kind with foreign personnel or government. And so on..." At one point the polygrapher stopped and pointed out that I was reacting to the question regarding criminal activity. Knowing that there was nothing I was thinking about I searched my memory looking for anything that I had done that could be considered a crime. So I came up with my speeding tickets, arguments with my ex-boyfriend and stuff that I had done since I was a little kid... "No, I'm looking for serious stuff, something that you could go to jail for" she replied. Not having anything else to say I ask for a few minutes and wrote down everything I remembered, from taking a dollar from my mom's purse to, again, the 3 speeding tickets I've gotten... That obviously wasn't good enough.
3rd polygraph Same story. Same problem with the same question. We talked about everything. I said everything I know about what I have done and haven't done. Everything! But not enough...
I'm very sorry to say that today I am unemployed because I could not pass the polygraph and the company I worked for do not see the need to process their employees for a fourth polygraph. And do you want to know what's worst? Knowing that I was honest and that I did everything I could and that wasn't good enough to save my job, which I loved, I was really good at and I enjoyed!
Comforting is to know that it was not my loss. That I honestly can say that I am an honest person who not only was dedicated to her job but, also, I would do everything I can to do what's right and protect the interest of NSA and the U.S.
L.O.D.