I'm a DEA candidate... and there is absolutely nothing special or competitive about me at all.  I have a BA, about seven years of professional experience and I can do pull ups, sit ups, push ups, and I can run a little bit... I should pass my PT's... I'm not like the rest of you all with prior law enforcement or military background.

I've led an uneventful life -- never used drugs whatsoever... have been in the room while others have smoked... I've never done it.   

But certain terms will provoke an emotional response from me -- If you say Al-Quadia, I get nervous... I'm not a terrorist.

If you say -- kiddie porn or Michael Jackson, I get nervous, I'm not a pedophile... but I have a small boy.

You say Southwest Airlines -- I get nervous, I hate flying...

Just being in the room with people who smoked weed... makes me FEEL GUILTY...
 
Psychologically, I don't think I'm suited to pass the poly and because I am an African American -- I FEEL like authorities already think I'm GUILTY.   

I hate to say it -- you always feel like people think you're GUILTY of the stereotype of smokin' weed or engaging in unlawful activity...  you constantly FEEL you are under more intense scrutiny and pressure as an African American male.  FEELINGS are subjective and that seems to be what the poly is measuring -- how I FEEL!

I also reviewed my psyche test with the Dr.  He seemed so stand-offish and unprofessional... he had no intention of making me feel at ease -- down-right adversarial.   

I can't imagine the poly interrogation... I'm going to get bounced for sure according to what I read here... not because the MAN is keeping me down -- but because of the my inability to hide my FEELINGS and my perception that people already think I'm GUILTY.

I intend not to employ any counter measures -- what are my chances... two, slim and none?