My first polygraph examination ever occured two days ago when I took a similar examination, but it was geared more towards infidelity in the mind (sexual fantasies) rather than physical infidelity. My fiancee believes that any sexual fantasy about any woman other than her constitutes a pattern of sexual addiction. I communicated to her that I had a fantasy about a certain woman that I would never act on in a million years. She was certain that if I had such a fantasy then I must also have been accessing all kinds of sick pornography including child pornography. I denied the baseless accusations and agreed to take the polygraph because I was certain that I would pass. I also agreed to the polygraph because my fiancee got extremely angry when I initially told her that I didn't have to take it, and she threatened me with violence. The polygrapher by all indications was an expert. He had many credentials (ie. PhD in psychophysiology and behavorial assessment), was trained both by the FBI and DOD, and he worked for years as an examiner for the LA Co. Sherrif's Dept. His bio also stated that he was a noted polygraph lecturer, trainer, and expert witness in worldwide demand with over 8500 examinations to his credit. Although he was also licensed to practice marriage/relationship counseling, he wasn't in this state. However, he informed my fiancee and I that it didn't limit him from making a recommendation for relationship counseling regardless of the outcome. Despite my fiancee's threats and the resulting duress, I was very relaxed throughout my brief 25 - 30 min. pre-polygraph interview and was feeling confident. The examiner was very polite and seemed to be very sympathetic, like a therapist. However, it should be noted that although he initially seemed wanton to get both sides of the complete story, he spent well over an hour interviewing my fiancee which may have resulted in a less-than objective administration of the test. At the time, I felt it better not to mention her threat and the duress that I was under to the polygrapher because I wanted to appear as non-deceptive as possible. In hindsight, maybe I should have. When it came time for me to get hooked up to the machine, relaxation turned to high anxiety. He tried to reassure me that there was no chance of getting falsely-detected as being deceptive because he would calibrate the polygraph machine to my level of anxiety. The problem is that level of anxiety during the calibration questions (ie. Is your name ****? Do you know how to drive?) was not as high than the anxiety for the actual test questions, although it felt that any increase was small. Is this done on purpose or what? Also, the test questions were all very timeframe specific, but I answered either yes or no without having to put too much thought into them and with the utmost confidence. My anxiety increased even more when he informed me that I wasn't sitting perfectly still after the first round of questioning. The second and third round of questioning were incredibly excruciating not because of having to answer all the questions again, which I answered truthfully, but because I became overtly-conscientious of the slightest movement and was having a difficult time trying to keeping still. Afterward, he spent a while taking notes. Then he gave me the shocking results. I had not only failed the test, which I was certain that I had passed, but the results of the test in his professional opinion proved that I was a sex addict who was in denial. In his words, the polygraph told him that if I didn't get help then I was "a ticking timebomb soon to committ sexual assault" and that I was in the advanced stages of sexual addiction. He never communicated to me that he could diagnose sexual addiction with a polygraph exam. I thought that we would be told either that I had passed or that I had failed and would then get referred to a relationship counselor. Needless to say, I felt is if I had been told that I was diagnosed with a terminal disease and had only a short time to live. It was that devastating. I never knew that a polygraph could ever be used to make such a serious diagnosis. The polygrapher made his professional recommendation to get immediate sexual addiction counseling and informed me that he had a list of referrals should I need help finding a suitable therapist. I don't seem to recall him making a recommendation for the both of us to seek relationship counseling. His professional opinion was that sexual addiction counseling solely for me would save the relationship. FYI, this whole strange and nightmarish ordeal has opened my eyes wide, and I have decided to break-off the engagement and end the relationship once and for all. However, my fiancee is now on a mission to try and make any life without her as miserable as possible.
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