I am sorry that I am seen that way by you. I have read other messages of encouragement that you have offered to others. I suppose I am stupid. I would say ignorant. My whole life is completely being ripped apart and I just needed some help. I chatted a little first and was given several pieces of good information that did me absolutely no good because my husband is insisting I take another test. He will not look at any information or even agree to look on his own. I am probably going to end up divorced. It's not right and it's not fair and I have two children who I have to watch go through this and I just don't think I can handle it. You don't know me and - obviously - there is no way to verify my honesty, but I am a good person. I love my husband and my family. I feel like I may not live through this. Yes I am stupid, but no I am not a troll. I apologize for being stupid. I would give anything to go back, but I can't. I apologize if you feel I have wasted your time. I'm sorry. I just needed some help. Please - anyone - please at least know that help and answers are all I came here for.