Johnn wrote on Sep 19^th, 2005 at 3:31am:

You spoke my words exactly how I feel!  Personally, this is the reason I'm going through a personal "great depression".  I used to be a firm believer in the polygraph. After the event happened, I was so traumatized that I spoke to a few of my close friends about the situation.  One of my friends actually asked me if I've ever used drugs.  I was shocked that he would ask me that question.  Of course, it's because he believes in the polygraph - I wouldn't believe me either unless I went through the experience.  This is one of those experiences in life where one has to go through it in order to understand it.

Johnn:

I think you are right about this. My belief in the polygraph was so strong before I took one that if I hadn't experienced it for myself, I never would have believed that it doesn't work, either. I would probably think that the people behind this site had some sort of ulterior motive and the posters were just bitter liars who got caught. I think I had even more faith in it than the average person. A lot of the people I know who learned that my polygraph failure was for real (instead of additional testing of some sort) said , "Well, you know, those things are not admissible in court."  My belief in the poly was still so strong even after my failure that when I showed up for my appeal interview, I felt paranoid and nervous, thinking everyone at the FBI thought I was a liar. I didn't know about TLBTLD at that time and was still very much in the dark.  I think it is difficult for those who haven't gone through such an ordeal to fully understand what it's like and why the experience can be so hard to shake.