Onyx, you are getting some good advice here from people that care about correcting the situation you find yourself in.

Never make decisions in anger. They are too often regretted.  Passion is operative when making love, but can be used to destroy you making war.

Not much I can really add to George's, XXX's and "Fair Chance's" advice.  Unlike me, they have walked in those shoes - though not to the degree you have.

Good luck, and let wisdom and forgiveness  be your guides.

-Marty